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Be more cat

Be more cat. And nap. They know what they are doing. Nap when they need to and, clearly, they have no guilt about resting. 

They play when they want to play, and never feel guilty about having leisure time. 

Although, very much like us they are very stoic when in pain and you can never tell that they are. But they are better at self-care than we are, man. They got it Down.

And when they give me snuggles I know they make me feel a whole lot better. They are magic that way. Snugglebuts.

I shall be more cat and nap when I need to, I think. And drop the guilt.
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Rhodiola rosea: my fatigue brain

By Hedwig Storch (own work) [CC BY-SA 3.0 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0)], via Wikimedia Commons
I have been using the supplement Rhodiola for fatigue and mental fatigue. What I can say is that the research is great for fatigue. I can also say that at my dose of 105mg I do see the benefits to it, but I believe it would be better twice a day. It seems to help after I take it for a certain duration and then I slump again. Although, with both fibromyalgia and migraines I can see why I would need an additional boost. Nevertheless, it is noticeable which is rare for supplements. 

Research suggests that it significantly reduces fatigue. And that in people who are fatigued helps with cognition issues, related to the fatigue... in other words, clears up the mental fatigue cloud. For a daily preventative of fatigue, it can be beneficial in as low a dose as 50 mg. "Rhodiola can improve cognitive functioning in persons who experience a reduction in fatigue, but there is insuf…

Blogger has new Themes

I have been changing the theme. Then again. And again. Trying out new themes when I found out my old one wasn't converting well to other screens. So needed a new one. And then they came out with New ones. I was eyeing up three of them.

This is the winner. Maybe. I will see how it rolls. Tell me if you like it.

Children and Migraines

Presentation courtesy of Diamond Headache Clinic.


As the slideshow above indicates children can present differently with migraines. It can present as Abdominal Migraines, for example. Even when migraines run in your family it can be easy to miss the indications of a child having signs of Abdominal Migraines, unless you yourself experienced the same thing as a child.

It is difficult to diagnose as well and is based on medical history, migraines in the family and a process of elimination.

Treatment is also a complicated issue since we are dealing with children. It is definitely something that is considered carefully and is very dependent on frequency and age. For older children, who do get them frequently, they are treated with the same preventatives as other migraines.

A study at the University of Alabama in Mobile found that migraines in children didn’t last as long as they did in adults. The pain in kids appears to occur rapidly, become intense quickly and typically last between one hou…

What it is like to have effective depression medication

First I would like to point out it isn't always easy to find effective depression medication or even at all. It can be complex and not responsive to medication. Depression in some cases can be far more severe than mine and much more difficult to treat. In my case, I cannot take antidepressants because I am sensitive to them which leads to suicidal thoughts and actions... which is sort of counterproductive really.

But when you do find effective medication it is pretty amazing really. I can literally tell when I would usually be in a major dive and I am just Not. It takes away the deep dives. Which are certainly the most frightening aspect of this depression. Deep dives are when I do have suicidal thoughts. Not to mention a lot less suicidal ideation, period. Coming from someone with chronic pain that is a major boon. High pain would plummet my mood and spike suicidal ideation. One would think the depression was directly pain related, but it was more a trigger. I was told it was Majo…

Lost Day, self-care and high pain

Today was a lost day. Days consumed by pain where functionality is lost and nothing gets done. Just a wasted day it seems to me. And I often wonder how many days get lost to the pain. Better not to ever have that question answered really.

It is our days of self-care.

But today I sort of just melted into the couch. Even now the pain has such an edge to it I really don't feel too intent on even distracting myself. Feel more like curling up into a ball sounds like a fine plan of action. 

So fine. Maybe I should curl up into a ball. Put some ice on my head. Get some aromatherapy for my nausea going. Just relax into something that requires no brain effort at all, like watching some Netflix. With my Axon migraine specs on because I am having some serious light issues right now. 

I have been tracking my everyday progress because my psychologist wants me to. It is a way to show what you accomplish each day, track your exercise and set some sort of goal for the next day as well …

Eternal frustration with Insurance

I'm at a point where I am unable to fathom what to do with my insurance company. Clearly, I am chronically ill. Clearly, I was on long term for it. I returned to work and it didn't work. I went down to part time, it didn't work. My doctor and psychologist wanted me back on long term. My insurance company wouldn't go for that and said it had to be short term... and apparently, despite to fact I was literally just on long term for the exact same thing denies there is evidence for it.

My doctor and psychologist essentially put it this way. I cannot work outside of the house. And I should try to find a work from home position. So the idea was go on leave from my current position and use that income until I found a replacement, which is a little difficult to find in Canada... easier in the States. However, what I have done instead is go into a lot of debt and borrowed a lot of money because my insurance company will Not cover me... due to lack of 'evidence'. 

I am app…

5 mistakes we make with chronic illness

In the beginning, we make some mistakes with chronic illness. Then we often repeat those mistakes later on. I have made so many of them because I am stubborn and like to learn the hard way
Ignoring our mental health- this is a big one. We have say chronic pain or some other illness and we ignore the mental health issue. We feel we can 'handle it' on our own. Some of us may think it is a weakness and we have to deal with it ourselves. Some of us are ashamed of it. While others are afraid of all the stigma associated with it or the doctor stigma. This is if your chronic illness isn't in this category, of course.Not pacing- We do the Boom and Bust causing us more pain than if we paced all the time. We feel this Need to be productive on good days and overextend ourselves. It is like we feel guilty for all we don't do on bad days and have to compensate on good days. Yet it hurts us to do this. If we pace all the time our pain is more level all the time.We guilt- We feel guil…

This isn't the easy road

So two roads diverged in the road. And my body took the hard road. It made all the difference. I would have said 'Hey, look at that easy road... let's check that one out.' But Noooo, it wanted a different path.

So chronic illness isn't the easy road. I don't have to tell you that.
There about 801 things we do to 'maintain' our chronic illness selves.






And still we struggle. I know I do. It is the pain. It is a difficult thing to cope with. I can't function working with it. I get severely depressed at times. Suicidal even, because I want the pain to end. And still I try. Still I do my 801 things and try to maintain. Because although I want the pain that will never end to end, I don't want to cease to be. Not really. I want to cease suffering.

And yeah I rock my chronic illness self. I am still here. I am still trying. I am still trying new things. I try new ways to cope. I fight the good fight. I have kept my sense of humour.

I don't need …

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